I don’t know how many times I have started this blog and deleted, then started again. I literally have no words as to how I am feeling today….just that hopefully I am getting on a flight in 9 hours time. ??And that I feel terribly sad.
I know I have no reason to feel sad, I have achieved and seen so much in the last 6 months. But I am feeling really sad. I don’t want to come home, I want to see New Zealand, Fiji and all the other places I have held in my heart for so long. I realise, they will still be there when this all blows over, but will I ever be able to get the time off work again?? Will I be in a financial position to carry on?? I’m aware that I can finish this once I retire, but who knows if that is in my stars. I have lost so many close friends, who never got to retire. None of us knows what is around the corner, that’s why it’s so important to live for the day. Stop putting things off and making excuses.
I’m of course, very excited to see my family, be it from a distance, in most cases. At least I am lucky that once I get home, I will have company (Jake may feel differently!!). I also have an amazing garden that I’m sure could do with a make-over by now!! I’m terrified at what work will hold for me, when I go back. I can’t even imagine what my colleagues are dealing with at the moment.
My self isolation actually finishes today. I think maybe I’ve had too much time on my hands to over think things. Once I’m home and feeling more optimistic, I will do a lovely ‘round up’ blog. I have been so lucky to have got this far. I mustn’t let the last 3 weeks distract me from all the amazing things I have seen and done.
I can’t even add any photos, because iCloud is playing up for some reason ???♀️